Monday, 22 September 2014

#internshipdiary (PART 2)



photo taken at Setia City Alam 



Hello. Today was a good day since it was SUNDAY and the only day that I DIDN’T HAVE TO GO TO WORK (u-huh—not work but doing my internship at the factory)

One thing that you should know is- I am not ready to WORK. Yes. I hate working life. Facing peoples is not that easy. It’s challenging and sometimes you just feel like ‘bursting’ the anger and feels like ‘ughh’ (I can’t describe that weird feeling)
It has been a two month already. I can’t wait to end this internship. I rather choose to be with BOOKS and ASSIGNMENT and PROJECTS gave by lecturers instead of be with PEOPLES.  It was not FUN at all.  

Yea maybe it doesn’t fit my soul and my mind. The conclusion is that I WILL NOT BE AN ENGINEER. The real me-always-wanted me to be what I want to be- SINCE  I WAS KID.I JUST WANT TO BE A TEACHER OR LECTURER OF PROFESSOR!
You know I really want to be something that I put my heart really into it- that I really enjoy of every moment of doing it.


That’s all.



Wrote on: 24th August 2014



#internshipdiary (PART 1)



this is the company that hired me and friends as a  'trainee'



Dear my dearie blog, I knew you miss me a lot. Now that I got a chance to write in this post about my-internship-stories, I am pretty glad (hehehe). Of course I have been SO SO SO busy and tired. Or maybe I just made myself busy with the new stuff and the new changes that happened to me started from 23rd of June.

I have never experienced any working life. I have never been exposed to the working environment until last June – when I entered the industry (to be specified I called it FACTORY) – I was like ------ WOAAA THIS IS CRAZY.

One week of trying to be comfortable with the peoples there and the places, I have so many mixed feelings. My head filled with thousands of questions. Don’t misunderstand cause THE QUESTION IS NOT ABOUT THOSE ENGINEERING STUFF. All the questions in my head are actually:
  •    How can they work with that stressful atmosphere every day? Every week, every month and every year?
  •    How would they being so enjoyable?
  •   How come they can manage to handle their family business while they only have time at night w them, and only Sunday is a holiday?
  • Why they were so strong and passionate?
  • MAYBE I AM TOO YOUNG TO UNDERSTAND WHAT ACTUALLY THEY BEAR IN THEIR LIFE. 

wrote on: 23rd July 2014


Friday, 13 June 2014

feeling




I used to fall
and then I crawl
I found its hard to stand up —-
like before.
but I keep feeding my soul 
with the words that thickening my hopes
to ever feel the phase of being up high above
just move in the slow motion to follow the rhythm ——
I know I will and I know I can have a hope
or even a lil dream.

by:
hazirah 
13 JUN 2014

#studentlife #finalexammadeness #zirah #zirahpuisidah #poem #phuii #love #writing #sketching #exam #wishmeluck

Tuesday, 3 June 2014

zero momentum.

my mind was not as good as usual.
my study mood had board on the plane and going back home.
and my body? still in UKM.
but it was not the main reason.

I am totally overwhelmed with the cloud of NEGATIVE CHARGE.
And that negative charge contain the element of --
1.SCARE
2.LAZY
3.SLEEPY
4.MOODY
5.LACK OF CONFIDENCE and etc etc.

Those charges attacked me right now. What should I do beb?
I feels like crying or maybe punch on my own face. Why I was unable to fight them? Why ?

if years ago, I cried because I couldn't found the solution for the complex problems.
today, I was vulnerably weak because I can't do anything to fight my own self.
struggling is the hardest part in life.

I was afraid of falling (to maintain the pointer was not an easy task)

BUT EVERY TIME I WAS TRYING TO ABSORB THE KNOWLEDGE AND READ THE NOTES, I WAS DISTRACTED BY SO MANY THINGS!

EVEN THOUGH I HAVE SET MY GOAL MY AIM AND MY OBJECTIVE OF THE DAY-- IT DOESN'T WORK !

EVEN THOUGH I HAVE READ SO MANY DOA TO KEEP ME AWAY FROM SHAITAN -- STILL IT DOESN'T WORK!


common dear self, you only got another one year to go to struggle damn hard to success in this engineering field -- so please don't be so weak -- so please wake up -- so please stand up-- so please don't lose hope -- so please please don't let the negative side of you win this war. YOU HAVE TO FIGHT AND BE POSITIVE. 




Allah please help me to gain the spirit of learning and studying :( I have not so much time and why I still keep wasting my time doing this(blog)??

Saturday, 31 May 2014

tell me

tell me.
how can I let go --
of all the things that shouldn't even matter?

because its really
shakes and fucks me up and inside and--
makes me think all these lousy thought.

P/S : I hate being alone in the room,staring at the blank wall, spending in front of the laptop and doing nothing,eating alone and I HATE THIS MOMENT ! can somebody come take me to somewhere fun? Oh!!!! can't wait to come back home :(

Tuesday, 27 May 2014

LOVE ADVICE

Health:
  1. Drink plenty of water.
  2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
  3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
  4. Live with the 3 E’s - Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
  5. Play more games.
  6. Read more books than you did in 2012.
  7. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
  8. Sleep for 7 hours.
  9. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:
  1. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
  2. Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
  3. Don’t over do. Keep your limits.
  4. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
  5. Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.
  6. Dream more while you are awake.
  7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
  8. Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
  9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.
  10. Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.
  11. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
  12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
  13. Smile and laugh more.
  14. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Society:
  1. Call your family often.
  2. Each day give something good to others.
  3. Forgive everyone for everything.
  4. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
  5. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
  6. What other people think of you is none of your business.
  7. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
  1. Do the right thing!
  2. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
  3. However good or bad a situation is, it will change. 
  4. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
  5. The best is yet to come.
  6. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

source : TUMBLR


P/S : my FAVOURITE things to do and place to go are BEACH,LAKE.GARDEN,FOREST (or maybe broga hills), CYCLING, FEELS THE NATURE, TRAVEL TO NEW PLACE :)

Monday, 26 May 2014

relationship.

im going to talk about relationship-RANDOMLY.
it was not about me or others but i just feel like to talk about it.
i am not the expert in handling relationship or whatever ship ( cause I am not a Captain )
but i do try to dig many more tips for the excellence relationship ( bestfriends,boyfriend or families)


as what i can observed,
some of us always 'take it easy' or make it 'too-simple' on their-everyday-relationship.

did you understand what i mean?

i mean, those who are having a good relationship for long-period-of-time always feel COMFORTABLE.
the word ' COMFORTABLE' is a kind of killer in one relationship !

comfortable description :
cosy and enjoyable being in love.
relaxation and confident with the relationship.
ignore the minor part of relationship and let it flow - with - the - same rhythm of love.

when you feel over-load comfortable,you always think that there is no harm would attack your relationship.
when you feel that there's no harm coming, you are always being relax and got no effort to make the relationship fresh.


when this happen, you don't know the consequence that might come to you!be careful!!

at least, you got to know how to keep the relationship interesting,exciting,alive and not boring.
how? do google it.
bye!


P/S : There are things you can do to bring a renewed sense of vitality to your relationship that don't involve spending large chunks of your savings or your time. What is it ? Think.



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