Monday, 22 September 2014

#internshipdiary (PART 2)

photo taken at Setia City Alam 

Hello. Today was a good day since it was SUNDAY and the only day that I DIDN’T HAVE TO GO TO WORK (u-huh—not work but doing my internship at the factory)

One thing that you should know is- I am not ready to WORK. Yes. I hate working life. Facing peoples is not that easy. It’s challenging and sometimes you just feel like ‘bursting’ the anger and feels like ‘ughh’ (I can’t describe that weird feeling)
It has been a two month already. I can’t wait to end this internship. I rather choose to be with BOOKS and ASSIGNMENT and PROJECTS gave by lecturers instead of be with PEOPLES.  It was not FUN at all.  

Yea maybe it doesn’t fit my soul and my mind. The conclusion is that I WILL NOT BE AN ENGINEER. The real me-always-wanted me to be what I want to be- SINCE  I WAS KID.I JUST WANT TO BE A TEACHER OR LECTURER OF PROFESSOR!
You know I really want to be something that I put my heart really into it- that I really enjoy of every moment of doing it.

That’s all.

Wrote on: 24th August 2014

#internshipdiary (PART 1)

this is the company that hired me and friends as a  'trainee'

Dear my dearie blog, I knew you miss me a lot. Now that I got a chance to write in this post about my-internship-stories, I am pretty glad (hehehe). Of course I have been SO SO SO busy and tired. Or maybe I just made myself busy with the new stuff and the new changes that happened to me started from 23rd of June.

I have never experienced any working life. I have never been exposed to the working environment until last June – when I entered the industry (to be specified I called it FACTORY) – I was like ------ WOAAA THIS IS CRAZY.

One week of trying to be comfortable with the peoples there and the places, I have so many mixed feelings. My head filled with thousands of questions. Don’t misunderstand cause THE QUESTION IS NOT ABOUT THOSE ENGINEERING STUFF. All the questions in my head are actually:
  •    How can they work with that stressful atmosphere every day? Every week, every month and every year?
  •    How would they being so enjoyable?
  •   How come they can manage to handle their family business while they only have time at night w them, and only Sunday is a holiday?
  • Why they were so strong and passionate?

wrote on: 23rd July 2014

Friday, 13 June 2014


I used to fall
and then I crawl
I found its hard to stand up —-
like before.
but I keep feeding my soul 
with the words that thickening my hopes
to ever feel the phase of being up high above
just move in the slow motion to follow the rhythm ——
I know I will and I know I can have a hope
or even a lil dream.

13 JUN 2014

#studentlife #finalexammadeness #zirah #zirahpuisidah #poem #phuii #love #writing #sketching #exam #wishmeluck

Tuesday, 3 June 2014

zero momentum.

my mind was not as good as usual.
my study mood had board on the plane and going back home.
and my body? still in UKM.
but it was not the main reason.

I am totally overwhelmed with the cloud of NEGATIVE CHARGE.
And that negative charge contain the element of --
5.LACK OF CONFIDENCE and etc etc.

Those charges attacked me right now. What should I do beb?
I feels like crying or maybe punch on my own face. Why I was unable to fight them? Why ?

if years ago, I cried because I couldn't found the solution for the complex problems.
today, I was vulnerably weak because I can't do anything to fight my own self.
struggling is the hardest part in life.

I was afraid of falling (to maintain the pointer was not an easy task)




common dear self, you only got another one year to go to struggle damn hard to success in this engineering field -- so please don't be so weak -- so please wake up -- so please stand up-- so please don't lose hope -- so please please don't let the negative side of you win this war. YOU HAVE TO FIGHT AND BE POSITIVE. 

Allah please help me to gain the spirit of learning and studying :( I have not so much time and why I still keep wasting my time doing this(blog)??

Saturday, 31 May 2014

tell me

tell me.
how can I let go --
of all the things that shouldn't even matter?

because its really
shakes and fucks me up and inside and--
makes me think all these lousy thought.

P/S : I hate being alone in the room,staring at the blank wall, spending in front of the laptop and doing nothing,eating alone and I HATE THIS MOMENT ! can somebody come take me to somewhere fun? Oh!!!! can't wait to come back home :(

Tuesday, 27 May 2014


  1. Drink plenty of water.
  2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
  3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
  4. Live with the 3 E’s - Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
  5. Play more games.
  6. Read more books than you did in 2012.
  7. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
  8. Sleep for 7 hours.
  9. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

  1. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
  2. Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
  3. Don’t over do. Keep your limits.
  4. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
  5. Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.
  6. Dream more while you are awake.
  7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
  8. Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
  9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.
  10. Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.
  11. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
  12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
  13. Smile and laugh more.
  14. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

  1. Call your family often.
  2. Each day give something good to others.
  3. Forgive everyone for everything.
  4. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
  5. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
  6. What other people think of you is none of your business.
  7. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

  1. Do the right thing!
  2. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
  3. However good or bad a situation is, it will change. 
  4. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
  5. The best is yet to come.
  6. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

source : TUMBLR

P/S : my FAVOURITE things to do and place to go are BEACH,LAKE.GARDEN,FOREST (or maybe broga hills), CYCLING, FEELS THE NATURE, TRAVEL TO NEW PLACE :)

Monday, 26 May 2014


im going to talk about relationship-RANDOMLY.
it was not about me or others but i just feel like to talk about it.
i am not the expert in handling relationship or whatever ship ( cause I am not a Captain )
but i do try to dig many more tips for the excellence relationship ( bestfriends,boyfriend or families)

as what i can observed,
some of us always 'take it easy' or make it 'too-simple' on their-everyday-relationship.

did you understand what i mean?

i mean, those who are having a good relationship for long-period-of-time always feel COMFORTABLE.
the word ' COMFORTABLE' is a kind of killer in one relationship !

comfortable description :
cosy and enjoyable being in love.
relaxation and confident with the relationship.
ignore the minor part of relationship and let it flow - with - the - same rhythm of love.

when you feel over-load comfortable,you always think that there is no harm would attack your relationship.
when you feel that there's no harm coming, you are always being relax and got no effort to make the relationship fresh.

when this happen, you don't know the consequence that might come to you!be careful!!

at least, you got to know how to keep the relationship interesting,exciting,alive and not boring.
how? do google it.

P/S : There are things you can do to bring a renewed sense of vitality to your relationship that don't involve spending large chunks of your savings or your time. What is it ? Think.

Sunday, 4 May 2014


whats wrong with me ?

like seriusly because of ONE HUMAN OR ONE SIMPLE THINGS ----- 
my eyes gone blurry,my mind gone crazy with the stupid statement saying that---
i am not happy and feeling alone.

walhal ---
Subhanallah betapa banyak betapa indahnya betapa penuh nya kebahagiaan mengelilingi.
Masyaallah betapa yang berada di sekililing depan mata aku telah banyak berkorban dan membahagiakan aku, jadi kenapa pikiran kosong masih menghantui mempengaruhi aku untuk tidak nampak semua itu?

whats wrong with me.

forgive me,God.

i should be MORE thankful and grateful to have WHAT ALREADY EXIST around me.

I’m trying to stay positive, you know. There’s all this good that I wanna do, and all these things I wanna do. And then I just can’t, you know. This is getting so frustrating. I’m trapped. I feel like I don’t have anything.

Monday, 21 April 2014


the introduction.

if you hate me-- just continue hating me.
if you don't like me -- just continue un-liking me.
if you think I'm ugly-- just continue thinking I am not pretty.
if you think I'm a messy-- just continue thinking I am really a messy.
if you think I'm bad-- just continue thinking of that.
if you think I'm fake-- just continue thinking I am fake.

because I am not born to be perfect but to be TRUE.

the content.

my feeling is never fake,
my feeling is true,
if I love my friends then I will continuesly spreading the love.
and only God can measure the sincerity exists in my heart.
I think I don't have the 'unliking' button in my body system.

the end.

Sunday, 20 April 2014

this song is kinda cute.

try to listen to this song :)
it's cute

I hate myself today
I don't know what's happening to me
I hate my face today
I think I look so shitty

I have some sweat everywhere
I'm not even shaved
My hair all greasy
I look disgusting

My eyes are glued
My lips are chaffed
My legs are prickling
And plus I'm stinky today

How can I date someone
With a face like that?
I know you're gonna dump me again
And I am gonna cry

'Cause you want a perfect girl
And I'm not what you expected
You want a perfect girl
And I look shitty today

Maybe I should put some makeup
And find some crazy outfits
But I am very tired today
And I don't care if I'm not pretty

Should be like these girls
Skinny and great all the time
I'm still wearing my slippers
And eat all the candies at home

I should sleep more
And stop going out every day
I should focus more
And stop complaining today

Tell me, how can I date someone
With a face like that?
I know you're gonna dump me again
And I am gonna cry

'Cause you want a perfect girl
And I'm not so perfect
You want a perfect girl
And I look shitty today

Tell me, how can I date someone
With a face like that?
I know you're gonna dump me
And I am gonna cry.

feeling twenty two.

Hey everyone :)

It's 18th of April 2014 (the date i was born into this world). What more can I say than Alhamdulillah. I can never thank you enough to the Almighty Allah SWT for every breath, every blessing and everything.

Anyway anyhow, I don't expect surprises  on my birthday as I was not brought into that environment. When I was young my family did celebrated my birthday EVERY YEAR but then when I entered pra-university/matriculation college, we didn't get the chances to do it anymore. And I have couple of experience blowing up candles on my birthday cake. Mama cooked many delicious food and invited our relatives as well as my friends too, and neighbours to come to our house.

Reminiscing those days- I remembered that I was a happy kid. If I browsed through the photo album at my home, I could see a happy me blowing the candles, wearing short pants and hand-made dress with innocent face ( as I was really young during that time--maybe 5 to 7 years old), and of course being surrounded with my siblings and cousins whom extremely excited to see me cut the cake. 

And not to forget- I got MONEY from my uncles and aunties as a gift ! you know why? because they were LAZY AND DOESN'T HAVE ENOUGH TIME to buy me well-dressed-presents. tapi budak kecik kan mana lah dapat sampai beratus pun, cuma puluhan tapi cukup buat hati riang like yeay I can buy new watch and clothes !

As I grew older, I received more birthday wishes from my friends via card,facebook, personal text, and other social media :) That's okay though. I never ever expect to receive fancy things because what is important for me ---- to say thank you to Allah and my parents for bringing me to this world with their greatest love.

can't believe that this girl has grown up :)

This year, I feel overwhelmed with wishes and dua's from everyone. I just can conclude that I APPRECIATED those effort so much- to my friends whom sacrificed their time,money just to make me smile on my day :) I was a happy girl. With the balloons, cupcakes and donut , gifts and card :) THANKYOU BEAUTIFUL FRIENDS. May Allah bless you guys!

I don't know whether I've grown mature or not but I'm so sure that I've become stronger compare to the previous year :) All of the 'test' that Allah gave to me moulded me to  be better and drive me to go closer to Him. I pray the best for my self, for my Ibadah, for my soul, for my Iman,for my future. I just want a strong heart to go through all the predicaments I will be facing in future. I want to be more positive, I really want to be strong, I want to be known as Zirah, the optimist lady. hihihihih. 

I think I chattered a lot.

So okay last but not least, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF :)

Friday, 28 March 2014

lot to be thankful for.

thank-you for reading my humble post, sweethearts.

you know why we must be thankful to God?
because of everything.

But tonight I would like to stress on how thankful was me to-still-have-parents-families that are still ALIVE.

because not all of us are lucky enough to still have both mum and dad.
when you miss your mum, or dad --- you can still have a chance to hug and kiss them.
when you are sad or need something --- you can at least call your parents to ask for an attention or needs. you still have a chance to touch them, feel them,hear their voices, look at them face to face.

don't you feel that you are so LUCKY enough and must be THANKFUL a lot to ALLAH?
did you know that there are peoples out there who MISS THE WARM HUG OF their-already-gone MUM AND DAD ????????????

can you imagine that how painful to miss the voice of the person that no longer exist in this world?
can you imagine that feeling when you want people that you love to hug--but they're not there for you?
I can't imagine that and I would burst into tears every-time I try to put myself in their 'shoes'

as for that, I was really really hope and pray that Allah will always give them a thousand of courage to stand up strongly everyday and every moment. I know their heart and their thought were feed with lot of doa's to their beloved mum or dad. I know that they always believe there's hikmah behind the test that they're facing. 

they grew up stronger.

I would like to ask you readers to spend one minute to recite Al-Fatihah to those peoples :

1) Arwah Zeti's father
2) Arwah Anis's mother
3) Arwah Lala's father
4) Arwah Aishah's atuk and father
5) My Grandparents
6) My Uncles and Aunty
5) Anyone that loss their father mother
6) MH370 Muslim passengers 
7) 529 Muslim Brotherhood members were sentenced to death in Egypt
8) untuk ibu bapa kita yang masih hidup juga
9) to relatives and teachers
10) semua Muslimim Muslimat

semoga arwah mereka ditempatkan dikalangan orang beriman.

p/s : I was extremely salute to all of you who struggled with the feeling of LOSS.

Sunday, 23 March 2014

if and only if.

if and only if I could turn back TIME.

I would like-----
to correct the choices that I've made.
to repair the moment that I've created.
to re-free the regret about everything.
to reduce almost 90 percent of the procrastination.
to re-do everything that I think I should.

I spend it on silly things so often.

I don't blame on people around me. It's all about me.
The girl who regret of her-wasted-unproductive-times-days-years.
The girl who can't let-go-almost-all-of-her-memories-or-past.
The girl who are always stick to the old moment-either it was good or bad.
The girl without a-burning-desired-spirit to be successful.

But as a Muslim and in ISLAM --- there's no such thing like:
"if don't do that, this won't happen"
"if they didn't go to there,they might not died"
"if she went to tuition,she will get straight A's"
"if she didn't walk to the road, the car will not crash her"

I believe that every single thing in this world are written by God.
We have no right to ask and keep pushing with the word 'IF' or "kalau lah"

what happened in our life is Qada' dan Qadar Allah.
or we can call it as a TEST from Allah.
or maybe it was a 'punishment' from Allah on what you have done wrong.

remember that.
don't complicate matters very much.
MISS-------Make It Simple and Smile :)

There's no sense in worrying about the negatives if they cannot be changed. 
If we waste energy and happiness on the things we can't change, we'll only make ourselves more frustrated.

p/s : Ya Allah, jadikanlah aku hamba-Mu yang sentiasa syukur dengan nikmat yang sedikit atau banyak dan tidak mengeluh dengan ujian yang kecil sekelumit cuma.

Saturday, 22 March 2014



Thursday, 13 March 2014

Queen of Clumsy.

Right now I was triple annoyed with my own self.
My hand was shaking like hello can you relax and calm down please 'fingers' ?

I JUST BROKE my new-chilli-sauce-glass-bottle while I was about to take BALANG GULA 
and I blank-ly didn't know that my hand also TOUCH the bottle sauce 
until it fall down to the floor---not floor but

I don't know how to react so I scream my room-mate's name "MIRAAAA" 
Small pieces of the glass with concentrated sauce were on my carpet 
and I have to get rid of it with kain buruk before I wash my carpet with sabun ( sobs sobs sobs )

Actually I am not sad because my carpet got those smell of the sauce or what but I am sad of my OVER CLUMSINESS . Har har har clumsy is not something to be proud of but to be sad of. You know that feeling when you seems so so bad at handling things. 

NO wonder la dulu mama aku marah bila aku nak beli botol sos kaca bawak balik UKM dia cakap nanti pecah la. aku menjawab ' tak kan lah nak pecah' dan hari ni----- pecah betol :(

Lepas cuci, lantai licin dan aku tak perasan dan aku hampir tergelincir dan nak jatuh luckily aku pegang dinding. And felt totally worst -_- I am confuse with my own self - I was 22 years old or 2 years old?

Not funny. 

YES. You ask me to chill and relax? It is just a small matter? You are right----- ini cuma masalah sampah masalah kecil perkara biasa dan nothing. Cuma aku besarkan perasaan geram ini kerana ini sudah ke seratus lima puluh juta aku ber kelakuan LOKLAQ DAN SANGAT LAH CUAI dalam segala hal. aku tegaskan sekali lagi -- dalam segala hal.

Now I would like to declared myself as a QUEEN OF CLUMSY !
I don't know how to deal with my clumsiness.
Ok bye.

PESANAN : don't forget to pray for MH370. semoga dijumpai semula. dan semoga Malaysia hujan dan jerebu kurang :)


Monday, 10 March 2014

simple things that would make 'soul' happy.

disebabkan bosan tahap tak boleh nak ungkap kan lagi macam mana.
aku decide untuk tulis dalam blog bout ----- read my post title.

I am-type-of-girl who loves 
cute and small things ,
love simple things,
love surprises
makes stupid stuff by my own hand 
(not so stupid because I think it is memorable and got value right?)
I am not claiming that I was the creative-est woman ever cause I love doing handmade. NO.
 *It is  just that I enjoy making it or seeing it or receiving it ( hihihi ) or whatever*

You know that feeling when you got surprises from anybody you love 
 and you were like 'OMG I'm totally touched and ecstatic'
And I really like to give peoples something that will make them remember me.
Dulu kalau setiap kali Hari Guru aku lah orang paling EXCITED DALAM DUNIA.
I spent my time by cutting,pasting and writing a small notes/cards for my teachers ( all subjects )
Because I don't have enough money to but fancy present so I just used my school-money-balanced to buy colourful manilla card and think bout wishing my teachers by using those hand-made card.
Isn't cute? What ? Not cute ? 
Okay fine.

And now.
Let me tell you some example of surprises that would make someone's soul happy.
It is just a not-so-fruitful-opinion but I wish to share it with you guys.

1) beli benda makan/minuman walaupun cuma cokelat lima kupang dan kat cokelat tu terselit notes --- with wishes. sure orang yang dapat tu rasa sayang nak makan pulak kan hahaharhar k tak lawak.

2) give flowers - you can pluck it from your mum's garden atau cuma bunga plastik dari rumah kenduri. if someone really appreciate the 'value of your sincere', they will smile in instant. kalau jenis 'materialistik' mungkin dia anggap itu cuma sampah. ops!

3) giving sweet wishes through email or inbox melalui facebook atau twitter or any medium of social network ( randomly even bukan hari istimewa ) un-expected wishes ( walaupun cuma wish selamat malam ) can makes someone's heart explode due to over-load of happiness

4) bagi belon sebijik dua bijik ( kadang kadang perempuan ni memang lebih ke perangai budak sikit ) tapi kalau malas tiup belon tak payah lah bagi. kalau nak bagi, you can put small notes dalam belon tu!

5) sending/making a music video of you singing/writing  or just collages all the photos together. simple rite? if not simple then I don't know what you are good at.

source : google

6) give something that related to their hobby or interested ( if you afford to buy it )

7) tulis atas tisu atau daun atau apa2 material lah letak dalam dompet awh sweet *muntah*

8) or something like this  : an envelope with the sweet wishes

You don't need to buy a Ferrari, buy expensive stuff to make peoples happy.
And you don't have to gigih susun lilin bentuk love tepi pantai pun untuk buat orang happy.
Tak perlu buat seprais fireworks kat langitmacam cerita Boys Over Flower ka apa ka.
Many others method that you can you use to make them smile sebenarnya. yang sesimple alam.
Just be creative and spontaneous.

Seriously,you don't have to spend lot of money to make peoples that you love happy. 
No matter how little or big that surprise it- everything related to surprises can  makes our heart weak to receive an unexpected gift from the person we love ♥ 


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