Projek Ilmiah itu apa?

Tatkala aku bersuka ria menatap TV di ruang tamu rumah.

Tatkala itu satu perasaan timbul tidak semena seperti mencemburui kesenangan aku pada saat itu.

Aku dihantui perasaan itu sampaikan berjuta monolog bermain di dalam minda dan akhirnya -----

menjerumuskan aku ke sini * tadaaaaaaaaaaada *

Sebenarnya bukan cuma satu perasaan yang muncul di benak pemikiran aku tetapi -- berjuta perasaan.
Dan perasaan dimaksudkan aku adalah kerisauan dan ketidaktahuan-lah-nak-gambarkan-bagaimana.
Terhadap apa?

bukan lagi kisah cinta.
tapi
kisah Projek Ilmiah aku sebagai pelajar tahun akhir.


Aku kusut.
Aku bingung.
Aku serabut.
Aku termenung.
Aku sambung kusut.
Aku kutip bingung.
Aku kelam kabut.

Walau realiti nya aku bertopengkan wajah tenang setenang air di kali. ( eh ? betul kah peribahasa ni?)
Aku mengaku aku banyak komplen (complain) dan banyak meluahkan this-never-ending-feeling berbanding aku cuba untuk mengatasi dan mencantas menangkas serta menawan masalah yang aku hadapi.

But who cares.

 

Alkisahnya.
Aku punya projek ilmiah a.k.a THESIS (or whatever you call it)
bertajuk kan sesuatu yang aku tak minat.
Dan aku tak da perasaan sikit pun untuk meneruskan kajian itu.
Hal ini merupakan salah satu sebab kenapa benda tu menghantui aku----- sampai ke rumah.

I was like ' hello thesis can we stay apart and get separated for a while until i come back to UKM?"
And that brat ( thesis) answered "NO. I WONT LET YOU GO"

*next chapter*

I still remember one of the most respectful and great ex-engineer/Professor from India came to our university. I was one of the student who has been selected by my lecturer to have some short-meeting or kind of sharing-experience-moment with that genius Prof.

He said to me:

"You know what is engineer means?"

" Engineer creates thing. Engineer innovate things. Engineer makes life easier. We make new cool things"

" Isn't it exciting?"

And I was loike " ohh okay i know that "

Then he continue talking about science-things.

"You know what all the science people do? They only study and learn and understand what already exist in this world. They explore the nature of life."

"Did you see the differences? Which one is much more interesting? Learning existing fact or creating and giving an idea of the new thing?"

And yes. I can't deny his words and I clearly saw his passion towards this engineering field. Though his look was quite-getting-older but his spirit overtook his age. What about me? Hmm still thinking of what is so exciting to be in this - err - don't wanna say what it is.

this is so--me!

*last but not least*

Satu benda aku nak cakap bagi kat hangpa.

Please make the right choice.

Once you took the one which is not compatible with you, 

you have to endure with it and get ready to bear with it no matter how complicated was it.

Aku berhenti menaip.
Bererti aku mahu tidoq.
Selamat malam. Moga aku bangkit dan serap azam serta semangat baru.

Zirah.
Pendang.Kedah.

Pelajar Tahun Akhir.

Hello and Hi.

Since this is my first post on 2015,

I would like to remind you to not to get bored with my post cause it might be - a very - long - story  (padahal nobody will read this post)

blog ni dah berhabuk dan berkarat * sembur anti-rust sikit* 

kerana tuan blog terlalu tidak punya masa nak login blog 

dan tidak punya masa memikirkan ayat power untuk dikarang didalam blog.

the faster way of expressing my feelings in form of words and photos (nowadays) 

adalah melalui wechat status,and instagram.
thats the reason why i am slowly forgetting you, my dear blog.

final year's student faces.

so, ya i still remember the first time of using this blog. i was about 20 years old. back to 4 years ago :) tak banyak benda yang berubah dalam blog ni hihihihihihi still the same-clumsy-girl with a big dream and her-40 kilogram of weight . eh ?

okay lets make it quick !

im home now. spending my time with lovely families since i was not home for about 6 month. why ? because last semester break, i have to rent a house and stay with my friends at Shah Alam to do my internship ( about 3 month) there. 

I only went back home for at least 3-4 days during hari raya last year, and when my father was sick last month ( which is actually-the last-year-also). I found that it was not kinda hard to be far from my family as i get used to it since i was 14 years old. I am not having any syndrome called- HOMESICK- anymore.

Currently, i m the final year student and i was not very sure either I should loudly shout "YEAYYY" or should be sad. I love studying though it was totally bored sometimes, totally tired and feels like giving up in the middle of the semester. 

Sebagai pelajar tahun akhir. sukacita saya luahkan - it was AMAZING. do not define amazing in a form of happiness only okay ? hehehehehe. 

I dont want to tell you how susah was it, or how interesting was it. Because evrybody had their own experience. And i only wish the best for my UPCOMING- LAST-SEMESTER. hopefully i can perform well, complete my thesis successfully , pass the results with flying colours, and FINALLY HOLD MY DEGREE SCROLL DURING MY GRADUATION DAY !!!!! 

Amin.

Will update more - soon. 

And ya i would like to tell you that i have another site of blog that I register when i was doing my internship. Here it is ------> https://xeyralexandria.wordpress.com/

Feel free to read walaupun cuma baru 5 post. 

Bye.

Zirah.

p/s: i can't wait to get my result for the last semester yang baru sahaja habis exam last week. the suspense was killing me.