Tuesday, 3 June 2014
my mind was not as good as usual.
my study mood had board on the plane and going back home.
and my body? still in UKM.
but it was not the main reason.
I am totally overwhelmed with the cloud of NEGATIVE CHARGE.
And that negative charge contain the element of --
5.LACK OF CONFIDENCE and etc etc.
Those charges attacked me right now. What should I do beb?
I feels like crying or maybe punch on my own face. Why I was unable to fight them? Why ?
if years ago, I cried because I couldn't found the solution for the complex problems.
today, I was vulnerably weak because I can't do anything to fight my own self.
struggling is the hardest part in life.
I was afraid of falling (to maintain the pointer was not an easy task)
BUT EVERY TIME I WAS TRYING TO ABSORB THE KNOWLEDGE AND READ THE NOTES, I WAS DISTRACTED BY SO MANY THINGS!
EVEN THOUGH I HAVE SET MY GOAL MY AIM AND MY OBJECTIVE OF THE DAY-- IT DOESN'T WORK !
EVEN THOUGH I HAVE READ SO MANY DOA TO KEEP ME AWAY FROM SHAITAN -- STILL IT DOESN'T WORK!
common dear self, you only got another one year to go to struggle damn hard to success in this engineering field -- so please don't be so weak -- so please wake up -- so please stand up-- so please don't lose hope -- so please please don't let the negative side of you win this war. YOU HAVE TO FIGHT AND BE POSITIVE.
Allah please help me to gain the spirit of learning and studying :( I have not so much time and why I still keep wasting my time doing this(blog)??
Posted by Nur Hazirah at 16:30